Getting Back Into My Routine

I have to admit that these past 2 weeks have been very stressful, emotional, depressing and humbling. There are many more words I could use to describe them, but those come to mind immediately.

I went back to work on Saturday which was nice. I work in HR for Super Target and it's always nice to see the people you work with every day. Jason and I have been spending some much needed time together whether it is watching a movie, having dinner or just playing a game.

I am just going to come out and say what has been going on-I am not a big fan of keeping secrets. I'm realizing that this is not easy for me to talk about-even now...I had a miscarriage. I was approximately 9 weeks pregnant (after 6 years of going through fertility treatments without success) and this happened on it's own-which was indeed a gift from God.

Unfortunately, the pregnancy was not viable and it had to be dissolved. The process was gut-wrenching-but I know that God brought us to that fire and walked through it with us.

We have amazing friends, family and complete strangers who have said prayers for us, sent flowers, cards, letters without even knowing our struggle with wanting children. We know that we had to go through that for a reason-we may never know.

We are grateful for the chance to even have children at all-and for me it was incredible to know what it was like to be pregnant.

This has been the most difficult thing that we have had to go through and I know that couples go through far worse than this every day. My prayers go out to those who struggle and that one day (no matter what the method) get to be parents.

Thank you for reading this, and we are wanting to accept what has happened and move past it-never forgetting what God has in store for us.