Getting Back Into My Routine

I have to admit that these past 2 weeks have been very stressful, emotional, depressing and humbling. There are many more words I could use to describe them, but those come to mind immediately.

I went back to work on Saturday which was nice. I work in HR for Super Target and it's always nice to see the people you work with every day. Jason and I have been spending some much needed time together whether it is watching a movie, having dinner or just playing a game.

I am just going to come out and say what has been going on-I am not a big fan of keeping secrets. I'm realizing that this is not easy for me to talk about-even now...I had a miscarriage. I was approximately 9 weeks pregnant (after 6 years of going through fertility treatments without success) and this happened on it's own-which was indeed a gift from God.

Unfortunately, the pregnancy was not viable and it had to be dissolved. The process was gut-wrenching-but I know that God brought us to that fire and walked through it with us.

We have amazing friends, family and complete strangers who have said prayers for us, sent flowers, cards, letters without even knowing our struggle with wanting children. We know that we had to go through that for a reason-we may never know.

We are grateful for the chance to even have children at all-and for me it was incredible to know what it was like to be pregnant.

This has been the most difficult thing that we have had to go through and I know that couples go through far worse than this every day. My prayers go out to those who struggle and that one day (no matter what the method) get to be parents.

Thank you for reading this, and we are wanting to accept what has happened and move past it-never forgetting what God has in store for us.

Faith, Family and Friends

Jason and I drove to Idaho in early July. It was a whirlwind trip jam-packed with movie nights with my nieces, play time with some loveable labs, bbq's, dad's homemade ice cream and my mom's home cooking. We loved visiting and miss all of them terribly. Here are some pictures of our visit.



This is my sister Shannon, her husband Cole and their just over 1 year old son Wyatt who has recently discovered sitting in the refrigerator while watching Elmo on tv.



My parents-my dad is holding Wyatt and my mom is with my sister Holly's girls; Raigan (9 in October) & Kamryn (5 in November).



Holly with her 2 girls (minus her husband Jason who was working that day)



My brother Logan & his wife Chelsea's lab-Kiedis. She loooooooooves to play fetch and didn't miss an opportunity to have us throw the ball.



Their second lab Wylie. He is just a lover and I'm pretty sure he gets a kick out of making you laugh at him.



My baby brother (who mind you is now the tallest of all of us)and his wife Chelsea.

I am realizing how important it is to have family surround you;whether it be your church family, relatives, friends, what-have-you. We are so lucky to have you-thank you for being a part of our lives.

Thankful

I have been going through some things lately and after going through several stages of emotions and my head cleared up a bit, I realized that I need to be thankful. Thankful for the trials and difficulties that are put in front of me. (please note-this is not involving marriage-Jason and I are great).

I realize that just because you want something terribly, doesn't mean it's in God's plan for you, or not right now. I am having to practice patience and rely totally on my faith and my wonderful spouse and family.

Things happen or don't happen for a reason; and although I may not know it now, once I look back maybe then I'll realize why I went through the things I did.